#Pure emotions
Everything I lived
Everything I trusted
Everything I imagined
Everything I did
Was darkness
May b the light
Didn’t illuminate
The whole..
Doesn’t matter
I want to see the whole
Only with my own eyes
Whether it’s dark or bright.
Was a thin transparent
unclear covering,
treacherous Time did clear.
May b I should’ve listened
to my old mind..
Thankyou….
Even if you’re quiet
I will follow your gestures and interpret your face.
Even if you can’t tell
I will imitate your lips and read your mind.
Even if you’re hiding
I will be your vision and extract that from your eyes.
I know you write
You write inside your mind
With your thoughts.
I can see that paper work and design
You have done for me.
And I won’t let that dissolve out
You would see..❤️
I don’t want credits
I don’t want gifts
I just want you to ideate me
Whenever that beat comes up.
How cAn you love someone so harD that you realise tears surfing down your cheeks to the pillow, even when you are dreaming.
I Am in balcony
Nature has captureD me
those netted sunbeams,
those beautiful interlinked hills,
those cute dancing florals.
Nature is in my eyes now,
such an enticing image
But my vision is incomplete
in your absence.
Nature needs your radiance
my love.
And I just need you by my side
absorbing it my dear.
I woke up today and directly went to the balcony ( strange…. I don’t know why ). My eyes were not opening as I wanted to sleep more but the serene scenery infront of me took away my dizziness. I didn’t sleep much yesterday. But everything vanished and positivity was all around me( it was inside me ).
So, this was the happy moment as I was able to notice such fantastic image and I was so close to nature. It matters me a lot. Nature is neutral, it absorbs all your negative thoughts and still it would remain the same, if you really feel it. That’s the real beauty of nature.
WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS TO FADE NATURE SEEMS TO SHINE.
I can eat music
but without you
I can’t feel it.
YesterdAy I haD a terrible day (before the first day), I was like I shouldn’t have come here. As on every running second I was feeling even the millisecond. And I am repenting that I am alone( without her ). I asked her but she had some genuine inevitable reasons. And I was a fucking idiot who had booked the tickets two days before( didn’t realise that I would get to see this). Whatever I did today it reminded me of her like I wanted her by my side at the time of bot fight, I wanted her in the programming workshop, I wanted her in the edm night, I wanted her to hold my hand when I was crying alone, treading alone.
To erase those painful dots I danced, I wrote(now I am doing same), I observed people. And it worked a little bit too. Today I experienced my first edm night. It was amazing. It would make you loose all your frustrations, it would make you a funny actor( you start making faces, weird gestures at the time of colourful flashing lights) and the most important thing your leg would start moving on it’s own. It’s involuntary and you would realise shortly. It would make you a dancer even if you wouldn’t have danced in your whole life. But at this moment I wanted to dance with her, I know I can dance but it would have been an awe-inspiring moment with her( if I would have got a chance). I WOULD HAVE STILL DANCED WITH YOU EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD WATCHED. But she wasn’t there I lost all my energy and little I have now, using to move the pen.
I didn’t feel that much as I realised that it was an ice bullet of happiness. I introspected and spotted that happiness originates from her, it doesn’t matter if it’s large scale or small scale . I can eat everything but you are the one who would make me feel it.
I sometimes feel that this is my anomalous dream.
I am twirling around and only you would make me concentrated.
Thankyou guys for all your support.
LOVE YOU….
yayy….
My emotions getting stronger and painful every second without you. I don’t know how I am going to survive these days or fight these feelings. Somewhere I feel I need to let them flow so that I wanna fall into you much more.
I don’t want to kill my buddies(cute emotions). I just want you. Every single second with you. May be I am making this more intricate but I still don’t have great vocabulary(may be there exists no such thing) to explain all those things that I really am feeling.
Sometimes there is no one to lift you up, to fill your heart with joy, to clear your mind (making you a joker ), there remains no person with you.
Even there would be no one to wipe out your falling down tears. You would repent the situation, you would realise how hard it is even to cry. THOSE TEARS FEAR TO FLOW DOWN EVEN IF THE FLOODGATES ARE OPENED.
You would be hiding everything, yes you have to and you really do.
No one except her would understand the magnitude of your pain and those piercing rays of your surrounding would make it even worse.
Even I try to crack some bad, lame jokes to bring everything to life but even that doesn’t make things better.
Feels like it’s very hard even to laugh and even to smile. Pretending in-front of everyone (that you are happy),, that is so fake it doesn’t feel right.
I just wanna get to you……… yep…..
This was the situation I faced when I was attending a fest and was lonely hoping for good things, the best. I wrote this in the train on the way to the location…. Many more are coming guys ….
Thankyou for all your support….
LOVE YOU (AD)
yayyy…..
I know loneliness feArs you,
your brightness Dominates
and those other soldiers of negativity
are conquered with kindness and love.
Some of them even run away with trePidation.
But I just want to have the power
to be with you at any time, in every situation.
It’s night,
It starts in deep slumber
connecting mesmerising memories,
serene sensations and fantasial feelings.
Here you eagerly wait
for something extraordinary
and finally your sixth sense spots her.
Your heart fills up with extreme happiness.
those enthralling fantasies
start dancing with the rhythm she creates.
You realise to face her in real life,
now you are detached, you are awake.
Wondering if you did the right thing?
It’s really strange,
you feel sad because of her absence
then you gift yourself,
those exquisite memories.
Reveries have become inevitable
it’s like oxygen to your mental health.
Here you imagine every little thing
explicitly to impress her.
Subconsciously your mind wants her
to pat you and to startle you.
But again you dream of one moment
to enlive your day , to uplift your heart.
Here that may or may not happen
but whenever it happens
the lyrics of those love songs
start waving, encircling you.
Your body teleports to cloud nine
enriching you with the essence of positivity
And it becomes night again………..
It’s been A long time guys, I misseD you a lot. I was attending a fest and was busy. But I designed this there on the first day as I was feeling little ( you know it’s actually not little but ‘formality’) alienated and lonely. I always wanted your suPport and you guys gave me (that power to write). But she is the one.
Thankyou for all your support
Yayyyyyy………..
PC:- https://www.deviantart.com/auroralion/art/Beyond-643556711
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