I woke up today and directly went to the balcony ( strange…. I don’t know why ). My eyes were not opening as I wanted to sleep more but the serene scenery infront of me took away my dizziness. I didn’t sleep much yesterday. But everything vanished and positivity was all around me( it was inside me ).
So, this was the happy moment as I was able to notice such fantastic image and I was so close to nature. It matters me a lot. Nature is neutral, it absorbs all your negative thoughts and still it would remain the same, if you really feel it. That’s the real beauty of nature.
WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS TO FADE NATURE SEEMS TO SHINE.
YesterdAy I haD a terrible day (before the first day), I was like I shouldn’t have come here. As on every running second I was feeling even the millisecond. And I am repenting that I am alone( without her ). I asked her but she had some genuine inevitable reasons. And I was a fucking idiot who had booked the tickets two days before( didn’t realise that I would get to see this). Whatever I did today it reminded me of her like I wanted her by my side at the time of bot fight, I wanted her in the programming workshop, I wanted her in the edm night, I wanted her to hold my hand when I was crying alone, treading alone.
To erase those painful dots I danced, I wrote(now I am doing same), I observed people. And it worked a little bit too. Today I experienced my first edm night. It was amazing. It would make you loose all your frustrations, it would make you a funny actor( you start making faces, weird gestures at the time of colourful flashing lights) and the most important thing your leg would start moving on it’s own. It’s involuntary and you would realise shortly. It would make you a dancer even if you wouldn’t have danced in your whole life. But at this moment I wanted to dance with her, I know I can dance but it would have been an awe-inspiring moment with her( if I would have got a chance). I WOULD HAVE STILL DANCED WITH YOU EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD WATCHED. But she wasn’t there I lost all my energy and little I have now, using to move the pen.
I didn’t feel that much as I realised that it was an ice bullet of happiness. I introspected and spotted that happiness originates from her, it doesn’t matter if it’s large scale or small scale . I can eat everything but you are the one who would make me feel it.
I sometimes feel that this is my anomalous dream.
I am twirling around and only you would make me concentrated.
It’s been A long time guys, I misseD you a lot. I was attending a fest and was busy. But I designed this there on the first day as I was feeling little ( you know it’s actually not little but ‘formality’) alienated and lonely. I always wanted your suPport and you guys gave me (that power to write). But she is the one.