When I found a reason
He made it fictitious.
When I found happiness
He made it delusional.
When I found failure
He made it even worse.
When I bit my skin hard
He made my teeth even stronger.
When I was burning
He fuelled the inferno.
When I met her
He forced time to run fast.
When I found love
He made her perplexed.
My emotions getting stronger and painful every second without you. I don’t know how I am going to survive these days or fight these feelings. Somewhere I feel I need to let them flow so that I wanna fall into you much more.
I don’t want to kill my buddies(cute emotions). I just want you. Every single second with you. May be I am making this more intricate but I still don’t have great vocabulary(may be there exists no such thing) to explain all those things that I really am feeling.
Sometimes there is no one to lift you up, to fill your heart with joy, to clear your mind (making you a joker ), there remains no person with you.
Even there would be no one to wipe out your falling down tears. You would repent the situation, you would realise how hard it is even to cry. THOSE TEARS FEAR TO FLOW DOWN EVEN IF THE FLOODGATES ARE OPENED.
You would be hiding everything, yes you have to and you really do.
No one except her would understand the magnitude of your pain and those piercing rays of your surrounding would make it even worse.
Even I try to crack some bad, lame jokes to bring everything to life but even that doesn’t make things better.
Feels like it’s very hard even to laugh and even to smile. Pretending in-front of everyone (that you are happy),, that is so fake it doesn’t feel right.
I just wanna get to you……… yep…..
This was the situation I faced when I was attending a fest and was lonely hoping for good things, the best. I wrote this in the train on the way to the location…. Many more are coming guys ….