I don’t want credits
I don’t want gifts
I just want you to ideate me
Whenever that beat comes up.
I know you must be thinking..
I Don’t know, I just fell only for you without knowing Anything about you and you became everything( my day, my night everything). I don’t care about the type of situations I will go through but I am damn sure that you are the love of my life.
Because I have never felt such pure feeling when you were gazing at me for the first time I saw you. I have never thought of such little pretty things which would decide my day. Never I have waited that long for someone. Never I have sprinted that fast and slipped without even realising the pain because I was lost in you. Never I have gone blank infront of someone.Never I have danced that funky whenever I got a sight of you. And never I have felt such happiness and worked on myself.
Sometimes we have to be lost in something, I am lost in you..
How cAn you love someone so harD that you realise tears surfing down your cheeks to the pillow, even when you are dreaming.
I Am in balcony
Nature has captureD me
those netted sunbeams,
those beautiful interlinked hills,
those cute dancing florals.
Nature is in my eyes now,
such an enticing image
But my vision is incomplete
in your absence.
Nature needs your radiance
And I just need you by my side
absorbing it my dear.
I woke up today and directly went to the balcony ( strange…. I don’t know why ). My eyes were not opening as I wanted to sleep more but the serene scenery infront of me took away my dizziness. I didn’t sleep much yesterday. But everything vanished and positivity was all around me( it was inside me ).
So, this was the happy moment as I was able to notice such fantastic image and I was so close to nature. It matters me a lot. Nature is neutral, it absorbs all your negative thoughts and still it would remain the same, if you really feel it. That’s the real beauty of nature.
WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS TO FADE NATURE SEEMS TO SHINE.
I can eat music
but without you
I can’t feel it.
YesterdAy I haD a terrible day (before the first day), I was like I shouldn’t have come here. As on every running second I was feeling even the millisecond. And I am repenting that I am alone( without her ). I asked her but she had some genuine inevitable reasons. And I was a fucking idiot who had booked the tickets two days before( didn’t realise that I would get to see this). Whatever I did today it reminded me of her like I wanted her by my side at the time of bot fight, I wanted her in the programming workshop, I wanted her in the edm night, I wanted her to hold my hand when I was crying alone, treading alone.
To erase those painful dots I danced, I wrote(now I am doing same), I observed people. And it worked a little bit too. Today I experienced my first edm night. It was amazing. It would make you loose all your frustrations, it would make you a funny actor( you start making faces, weird gestures at the time of colourful flashing lights) and the most important thing your leg would start moving on it’s own. It’s involuntary and you would realise shortly. It would make you a dancer even if you wouldn’t have danced in your whole life. But at this moment I wanted to dance with her, I know I can dance but it would have been an awe-inspiring moment with her( if I would have got a chance). I WOULD HAVE STILL DANCED WITH YOU EVEN IF THE WHOLE WORLD WATCHED. But she wasn’t there I lost all my energy and little I have now, using to move the pen.
I didn’t feel that much as I realised that it was an ice bullet of happiness. I introspected and spotted that happiness originates from her, it doesn’t matter if it’s large scale or small scale . I can eat everything but you are the one who would make me feel it.
I sometimes feel that this is my anomalous dream.
I am twirling around and only you would make me concentrated.
Thankyou guys for all your support.
My emotions getting stronger and painful every second without you. I don’t know how I am going to survive these days or fight these feelings. Somewhere I feel I need to let them flow so that I wanna fall into you much more.
I don’t want to kill my buddies(cute emotions). I just want you. Every single second with you. May be I am making this more intricate but I still don’t have great vocabulary(may be there exists no such thing) to explain all those things that I really am feeling.
Sometimes there is no one to lift you up, to fill your heart with joy, to clear your mind (making you a joker ), there remains no person with you.
Even there would be no one to wipe out your falling down tears. You would repent the situation, you would realise how hard it is even to cry. THOSE TEARS FEAR TO FLOW DOWN EVEN IF THE FLOODGATES ARE OPENED.
You would be hiding everything, yes you have to and you really do.
No one except her would understand the magnitude of your pain and those piercing rays of your surrounding would make it even worse.
Even I try to crack some bad, lame jokes to bring everything to life but even that doesn’t make things better.
Feels like it’s very hard even to laugh and even to smile. Pretending in-front of everyone (that you are happy),, that is so fake it doesn’t feel right.
I just wanna get to you……… yep…..
This was the situation I faced when I was attending a fest and was lonely hoping for good things, the best. I wrote this in the train on the way to the location…. Many more are coming guys ….
Thankyou for all your support….
LOVE YOU (AD)
It rAineD rosy today
as I saw ,
aggression, calmness and Patience
There are times when you feel sad, you remain isolated, you feel sorry for something you only created. THAT TIME YOUR HEART NEEDS A PURE FRIEND TO PUMP BLOOD(to boost you up). You try to hold up your mental condition but you fail somehow (it’s inexplicable). You become sick, for no feasible reasons. That’s how life takes you on….. right. Then you try to cope up with normal conditions but still that urge to get her sight continues.
Unexpectedly you see a light in the hallway. You are baffled for a moment. She doesn’t know what you are going through. But you present yourself as you are a cowboy. You don’t realise then but you feel pure happiness. ” OH MY GOD” everything is right.
The thing is you see that she is happy and that’s what matters.
Those biting days are gone, now you only cherish that moment.
This loops in your head and only she can put a break statement with a new loop.
IF YOU HAVE SUCH MOMENTS FEEL FREE to tell or comment……..(LET THOSE EMOTIONS FLOW DON’T KILL THEM)
I found this picture here: https://www.artstation.com/artwork/Qe9dB